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I am not perfect.
By philip | May 12, 2008
I alluded to it a few weeks ago in talking about struggle, but it bears repeating.
These words I type and the stories I tell come from my heart; they are ideals to which I strive and bearings on my journey. They are not testaments to my own perfection or mastery of life’s living.
Like the martial artist studies his forms and pursues the perfect execution of every move without ever anticipating the achievement of that perfection, so too do I live. I hurt, I fall, I make many mistakes, and I most certainly struggle with life. I will never claim otherwise.
What I will claim without hesitation is my desire to make every effort to learn which direction to set my sights, in order that I may live consciously and compassionately. I believe in what I say, and set my heart to that course. Someday those beliefs may change and if they do then I will adjust.
I encourage everyone to choose their own path in life, and to find their own moral compass. You are your own best teacher, and you alone bear the responsibility for your growth and guidance. I merely share what I have found to work, in the hopes of providing seed to those who seek to grow their own garden.
“If naught but this: to thine own self be true”.
Next week: Ronin, part II
Topics: life, as it comes |
July 14th, 2008 at 8:53 am
IT is, I think, a gift to others, to share what has worked for us in the context of learning to live well.
I have stopped making resolutions at the new year, but I had an epiphany that now seems to be a work in progress. I want to live more consciously. I feel like I was dragged kicking and screaming through 2007. I Want to feel more alive this year, to feel life, to know where my time goes, and I still feel like the days are slipping away from me potential unfulfilled and loose ends untied.
I know God made me with a plan and purpose in mind and everytime I hang out with people with whom I connect and enjoy life with, I know I am there, I am where I am supposed to be, then I feel like an involuntary slug the rest of the week, sliming my way through the days in an office job, that I need right now.
As Regina pointed out some things meant for our advancement, ruin us. In this case, in order to rectify the financial mess my life reeks of, I need this good money to give away to credit card companies so that I can be FREE! I am bound up in the chains of debt which I affixed willingly to myself and then swallowed the key. So in these chains I remain for some time.
Then my goal becomes consciously enjoying every moment I can fulfilling my true purpose of loving others and being a better me. (talk about struggle-being a healthy me who can inspire others to be healthy is a goal I seem to have amnesia about many days, but I will not stop reaching for it.) Attaining perfection? NOt this side of heaven. Embracing my flaws and becoming an others centered person, focusing outward, THAT is important to me.
Thank you for being imperfect with confidence, Phil.